Friday, November 28, 2008

Counting

Counting, counting and busy counting.....
have previously mentioned.... results are out so one can go about calculating their marks for each sem for their honors WAM... so my juniors are like BUSY counting their honors WAM. up till now I still do not get it... why the school gave us like the sem WAM and not the honors one?? *scratching my head* Cos ours is like a direct honors thingy so isn't the honors WAM is more important?? well there is no major difference in the overall but if you did well in first year is NOT COUNTED..... and so.... busy counting away.....

Have been consoling one of my frens yesterday cos he missed class one by abit... is like 0.7%..... felt sad for him.... cos I understd how he felt..... I am never easy with my marks...... I remembered once scoring like 75% I was like "what the @#%$%%$^#$@#" my mum had to raised her voice like "your mark was oki already... can you just be contented or not..." and my dad was like "ya loh is not like you scoring 57%" so... even now I am still not contented with my marks..... my mum was like so nervous when I told her I got back my result yesterday, haha is always like tat o.O she used to complain saying that if this goes on she will get severe heart-attack one day X_X is it tat bad??? =(

so counting, counting and counting are what most my juniors are doing now. they even come up with a spread sheet to calculate the honors WAM.
well some are worried about not getting class one and others are worried about not getting university medal.



well I rather count $$$ and not marks -_- but reality is so cruel.... I am so broke that I not have much $$$ to count... peanut salary

Results O.O

Results for sem 2 were released yesterday at around 10 plus. It still concerned me oki haha cos I did take "1" module this sem O.O the result came out oki ^^. I was quite worried as I have a dream the other day that I scored 58 -_-. have a chat with one of my junior, Yossy, she scored well, average HD. but she said that this sem is the lowest WAM that she had gotten over these 4 yrs. she used to get like 92 for average. *horrified* I know she is smart but haha maybe I am just not tat smart so I was amazed o.O really do miss my undergrad times, although the last sem is really crappy but overall is good. I just miss the times when I was younger and not having so much unneccessary worries *if only I could turn back time*

have just met up with supervisor abt making plans for the next 6mths after I come back from s'pore. Is a whole lot of stuffs to do. *I can do it as it is the route that I have chosen so no regret, slapping on my face to tell myself is time to get serious as honeymoon period is OVER*

To my juniors who got 1st class, CONGRATULATION, I am just so proud of you guys and gals.



*The route to happiness*

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Gloomy Day =(

although is only like noon, I can forsee myself not having a good day..... got an email from my other prof this morning and tat goes my day =( I know that she meant well cos this shows that she is concern abt me even though I am not her student anymore. I am pushing my research all along but still not much results are coming my way...... due to the end of the year.... booking of equipment on-lab and off-lab is nearly not possible.... I am scared myself too whenever I am typing my report, I fail to see any graphs......
No result = Not working hard enough??? I bet to differ..... *moody to the max*

The worst of all is... I have lost my appetite after the severe food poisoning.... I want to EAT.... but everytime I do eat alot..... I ended up having this cramp in the stomach and after which vomitting...... arhhh..... so I have to eat a little at a time.... "A LITTLE" can you imagine??? =(

catching a movie tonight.... hopefully it turns out well.... I don't want anymore whining after a shitty day but I guess is unlikely.... why does young gal like to whine to guy like abt 5 yrs older??? or in the first place why do they have to whine??? Did I ever whine when I was like in my 20s??? I hope not -_- is really irritating..... if the guy dine call you then dine call lah why have to ask me why he called me and not you??? how annoying is tat??? as if I know the answer to that.... maybe I just simply dun understd or rather I am a guy trap in a gal's body which my dad used to say -_-.... and so I behave more like a guy which dun really care abt this small detail....
*I should be more caring and loving to the younger ones I know but in times like this..... is really getting on my nerve....*



well like the gals say: Looking forward to the FESTIVE SEASON and 22 dec =)

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

I Do Know

I do know that to him I am only his sister in Christ - I am contented seriously as I could still have a chance to talk to him and have dinner together.

I do know that he knew about me believing in platonic frenship - he has once asked me if I am the type of gal tat believe in platonic frenship? and I said "yes" immediately *feel like hitting myself on the head* why do I have to say that to him???

I do know that I treat all the guys equally nice = giving them the wrong idea - I really do want him to know that he is that someone special to me.... How do I go abt telling him now??? haiz..... is never going to happen *sad*

I do know that he knew about me not going after guy younger than me - have a discussion with the boys and him the other day abt our "ideal" - they were like why not going out with younger guys?? age doesn't matter..... sad to say... to me it matters alot.... so wat am I ranting now?? ahhh why do you have to be younger than me??? why is your hometown so far away from me???

I do know that things have changed back home - as long as my gals are happy and not mentally tired, I will be happy too. To me, my gals are really important and I don't want them to be mentally stressed out. if certain issues don't work out, there is no point forcing.... I choose to stay silent not because I don't care abt the situation but is just that I feel I wasn't there the whole time and I am in no position to make any comment. Even if I don't have a say.... I do hope I can be a neutral party in this situation. Not that I am being two-headed snake.... Is just that each individual of you gals has really left distinct marks in my life.

I do know that 3 yrs for research is short - wat am I doing now during office hour?? I should be doing research.

Just putting my thoughts down..... Ok get back to lab -_-


I may seem strong to strangers...... But in times of gloomy days.... I really hope I do have that special someone that is always there for me to lean on

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

God and His Beautiful Creation

Got this picture from precious moment inspiration.
How cute is it?? ^_^


To Me Every Hour of The Light and Dark is a Miracle. Every Cubic Inch of Space is a Miracle.
~Walt Whitman

The Day, Water, Sun, Moon, Night - I Do Not Have to Purchase These Things with Money.
~Plautus

How amazing is this. Our loving God has indeed created all the things that we need.

Is it??

Is it because of the resemblance of someone?
Is it because he is a Christian?
Is it because he is of height >178cm?
Is it because he has dark skin color?
Is it because he is doing a degree that I always wanted to do?
Is it because of the way he leads BS?
Is it because of his kindness to the ones around him?
Is it because of his seriousness at work?
Is it because of the fact that he has meet all my criteria?

or is it......

Well... like I have mentioned before "So near yet so far...."

The reality fact is that:
His hometown is miles away from mine
His age is way younger than me

the worst is that half of the time we don't agree with each other......

The only thing I do hope for now is that, he will be able to pull through the exam that is going to happen in like 20 mins time. due to the difference in our major.... praying is the only thing I can do for him.
*I do have confidence in him*

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Dinner @ Zilver

Dinner at Zilver with seniors ^_^
Is a special occasion as is two of my seniors' (Ian and Maria) bday celebration as well as one exchanged senior's (Rothman) farewell.
Food Food Food here we come ^O^

First to be serve is tada:

Peking duck, *Yummy. is sososo crispy"
When I bite it, is really juicy and is only the skin "slurp"


Scallop with tong fen, one of my favourite. the XO sauce is just so delicious.


erm.. the remains of the duck from the peking dish. not my favourite but is good too, healthy ^_^


Followed by 7 dishes, we were so full, contented, is not pricy at all which is GOOD.


My favourite of the day ^_^: prawn cooked with salted egg. is just so tasty that i felt like floating after taking a bite *yummy, finger-licking good*


Crazy bunch from Rm 402 and 419 = Engineers Unite

Happy Birthday to Ian and Maria
Safe Journey to Roffy aka Rothman

With us around is always playing and eating ^_^

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

So So So Sweet

I have to blog about this ^O^
My senior's boyfren is so very ultimately SWEET. Is her birthday yesterday, her boyfren baked a cake for her and went over to her place at 12 midnight. a huge tiramisu cake. it tastes superb *slurp*



He even went to paddington in the early morning to get her fresh roses. how sweet is tat??? and he asked her to count the number of roses, and there are 25 roses in total (matching to her age)



Tat's not all, he even have a koala holding on to a rose. tat is so cute.



Their love and sweetness are drowning me ^O^

haha Rothmann saw this he was like "oh I am so jealous". I was like "no you should look up to kiendy as a good role model and be sweet to your future gal fren".

Rothmann: chey....she should do this to me and not me
Me: hey.... we are living in a new century oki.... guys must be sweeter....
Rothmann: oki lah..... I will be sweet sweet
Me: -_- (but Rothmann is a really sweet guy hehe, just teasing him only)

wahhh i want too.... like i have said before.... good guys are all taken......
Will there be any left for me??? I hope there is please....

Monday, November 17, 2008

In Deep Thoughts......

Went through Proverbs 31 in both bible study as well as sunday sermon last week. hearing these verses are not the first time, one of the lady preacher has preached during the women conference a few months ago. the verses are written as follows:

Proverbs 31: Portrait of a Godly Woman
A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. Strength and honor are her clothing; she shall rejoice in time to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her. Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

This is how bible describes a "Godly Woman". How I wish I am like that. *working hard*
well, "Should woman take up career?" or "Taking the role of mother-hood?" These are the questions that were stuck in my head after the sermon on sunday.

My pastor mentioned that, it will be best if woman can take up the role of being a mother meaning stayed at home and look after both the kids and husband. Well upon hearing this, one will be "eekk why should I do that??" as for me I began to wonder. will i just stay at home after i have kids? or will i continue to work? I always have this qn in my mind. I have frens who once told me that I am the kind that will stay at home to be housewife and take care of my husband and kids. so they said that I shouldn't study so much cos in the end I will still be staying at home. "Will I??" can't deny the fact that I would like to see my kids grow. ppl will say tat you can still see them grow even if you are working.... but tat is different isn't it.. working... it takes up most of the time and the amount of time mingle with the kids will be at its minimum... haiz... difficult decision indeed...

coming to think of it, I worried too much haha, I dun even have a boyfren -_-
The issue abt boyfren.... someone asked me the other day, wat are my criteria in looking for "the one"?
Here goes:
  1. must be christian
  2. height = >178cm
  3. skin = dark (chinese)
  4. either malaysian or singaporean (if malaysian must be willing to come over to s'pore, cos I am not going over to malaysia
  5. must be a graduate
  6. must be older than me

am I asking for too much?? Ans = YES

Of course I am kidding, is just to irritate those who asked me. but he must be a christian. tat's for sure. well if you ask me, I would say someone whom i can get along with. and of course love me. I dun really go for looks, i believed is the personality that counts.

Why is it so difficult to find "the one"? Am I being PICKY?? -_-


Saturday, November 15, 2008

Cake Anyone??

Another entry for food, tada cake ^_^
One of my favourite dessert hehe beside ice cream. *yummy* My supervisor brought me and lab buddies to this cafe yesterday. they sell really good cakes o_O

The first to come into view is - Creme brulee

This is really good. is not too sweet as compared to the ones I had before and is so soft.

A type of Coffee cake haha, dun really know the name, my senior ordered it.

erm... is not my favourite as i dun really drink coffee. But coffee lovers should try this. Is really good.

Lime cake??

A mixed feeling of sour and sweet. unique. definitely worth the try. one tat should not be miss o_O. The white part is sweet. The surrounded green part is abit sour. In the middle part of the cake, the lime starts to gush out. taste just like lime sorbet. *slurp yummy*

My favourite of the day ^_^

Is a mixed of strawberry and mango. These two go really well. Strawberry sponge on the outside and surprised mango on the inside. *tasty*

Here comes the tarts.....
Strawberry


Mixed fruits

The crust is really good. When I eat tarts, I go for the crust hehe, my favourite ^_^

The contented Group hehe


This cafe is situated at "the rocks". the atmosphere is good and is not very pricy, value for $$ haha. Thanks supervisor for bringing us there and seniors who drove.

Not Contactable

I lost my mobile phone the other day >_<
all my contacts GONE GONE -_-
Ever since I own a mobile phone, I don't think I ever once lost it.... But now I did... WHY??? why am I so careless >_<. Upset to the core.... well everything happens for a reason o_O. although everyone has been telling me tat I can change my phone *yeah, clap hands*. unfortunately, i really dun wan too. have been using it for the past 2 yrs and my dad bought it for me right before I board my plane back to Aussie. Is a memorable phone. -_- . sadded..... It felt like I have lost one arm when I realised that I have lost my phone, didn't realise I am so attached to it. haiz.... well coming back to get a new one. as the ones in Aussie is pretty out-dated >_<

Phone Phone Phone Where are you?
I am trying to find you.
Phone Phone Phone Where are you?
I am so so lost now >_<

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Eating is GOOD

Eating is always the best choice to pass time. I really do have the passion for eating. from junk food right down to proper food haha.
I really wanted to try Tetsuya with my parents haha ^_^. rated one of the best five restaurants in the world in 2006.

During Conference dinner haha.


Before dinner= me and senior waiting patiently to eat



Taking food ...... Hendy was like "the food is overflowing your plate"



Still taking..... even Hendy is laughing at me -_-


Tada. satisfied haha
I was telling Mian the other day that I am actually proud of myself for managing to stack all the food I want to my plate. cos i am just simply too lazy to go for second round ^_^


My favourite = Eating
even my senior is thrilled haha. I have to split my food to two plates before I could start eating. guess what??? I manage to finish all of them >_<

Desserts

Look at the spread..... they are so delicious... how can I resist??? ^O^

For me, I dun really care about the place, the atmosphere or price.... as long as is good, i will go.

Well, Esther Kok has a theory that is:
dirty place = "selling good food"
That's the reason why I like S'pore hawker food so much and is CHEAP ^_^ haha.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

All is Good

Yesh all the worries are GONE. and all is GOOD hehe ^_^
Just came back from Gold Coast, did tones of things there. My seniors are all so fun, or should I say crazy bunch of ppl haha. They really work hard and play even harder. During conference, we refused to sleep at night and the next day dragging our feet to the conference to listen to endless talks given by the professors. They are really inspiring but if is not related to your field it may sound really boring >_<. I have no issues with the UQ ppl whatsoever...... however after this conference..... i feel that they are just bunch of snorbbish ppl, they ask qns during conference for the sake of putting you down and not asking it because of extra knowledge. I was particularly pissed with 2 of them. one let's call him "N doped P25" and the other "UQ".

N doped P25 was there at my senior presentation and he was asking abt why my senior only took account of only 6 pts for his data. My senior was there trying to explain that the other points have already reach steady state and there is no point analyzing the data. well that "smart" N doped P25 was like "oki watever I am not very convince..." wat the hell.... we are not convinced with your findings either... did we put you down??? we dun even bother... you can fool others but not us..... my senior's presentation have been presented twice overseas... wat abt you??? if there is a mistake in taking those 6 pts, that will be raised by us and not "YOU". irritating.....

As for UQ.... it happened during my presentation....
UQ: will your slides toxic to the human cells?
Me: This I have no comment, this is not my area of research and mine part is to investigate the killing of bacteria. if you want to know this information, my labmate is focusing on this area.
UQ: so you are trying to tell me you are waiting for her results and that you two are sharing the same information to be put in your thesis?
Me: Huh?? no... this is just not my area of research... my part was to analyse the slides coating and putting them to test for bacteria and how the mechanism works...
UQ: well ok

(In my mind, i was "are you deaf or wat??" I clearly said tat is not my area of research... where the @#@$#%$^#* did you get these stupid ideas??? and dun you dare anyhow interpret my sentences....)

stupid ppl making my blood boil.....

After the conference, we went to Movie world and Dream world. all we did the next 4 days were shopping, eating, sleeping and playing. is really memorable hehe. some of the rides are pretty scary but is FUN. hope to go again hehe.

waiting patiently for dec to come so that I can go home for christmas and CNY *Happy*
Until then, work hard on my experiments *wink*

Monday, November 3, 2008

At this moment

Lots of thoughts running through my mind and I am in serious constipation...... when do I ever had one?? *scratching my head in disbelief*

My frens are saying that I am being self-denying. well at some point I am.... but wat can I do beside tat.... after wat happened i still choose to deny although thinking of it feels really hurting. most of the time, is the action that makes one know the truth behind and not much of by saying it out loud. I do know is time to wake up but still I wish I could sleep a little longer... running away from reality? I guess I am.... I just want to hold on to tat something tat is so dear to me for awhile longer, or should I say I never once thinking of letting go. but I guess when the time comes... I have to... eventually. I guess is due to my own character, I am one who always look back in the past = clinging on to the past, the stuff that I have done, those who come in and out of my life.
why does life has to be so complicated? i guess is the mid 20 crisis that Qian mentioned in her blog which me and Michelle fully agree =)

haiz... furthermore stupid constipation making my days worst. stuffing myself up with ultimate lots of fibre.