I Do Know

I do know that to him I am only his sister in Christ - I am contented seriously as I could still have a chance to talk to him and have dinner together.

I do know that he knew about me believing in platonic frenship - he has once asked me if I am the type of gal tat believe in platonic frenship? and I said "yes" immediately *feel like hitting myself on the head* why do I have to say that to him???

I do know that I treat all the guys equally nice = giving them the wrong idea - I really do want him to know that he is that someone special to me.... How do I go abt telling him now??? haiz..... is never going to happen *sad*

I do know that he knew about me not going after guy younger than me - have a discussion with the boys and him the other day abt our "ideal" - they were like why not going out with younger guys?? age doesn't matter..... sad to say... to me it matters alot.... so wat am I ranting now?? ahhh why do you have to be younger than me??? why is your hometown so far away from me???

I do know that things have changed back home - as long as my gals are happy and not mentally tired, I will be happy too. To me, my gals are really important and I don't want them to be mentally stressed out. if certain issues don't work out, there is no point forcing.... I choose to stay silent not because I don't care abt the situation but is just that I feel I wasn't there the whole time and I am in no position to make any comment. Even if I don't have a say.... I do hope I can be a neutral party in this situation. Not that I am being two-headed snake.... Is just that each individual of you gals has really left distinct marks in my life.

I do know that 3 yrs for research is short - wat am I doing now during office hour?? I should be doing research.

Just putting my thoughts down..... Ok get back to lab -_-


I may seem strong to strangers...... But in times of gloomy days.... I really hope I do have that special someone that is always there for me to lean on