Simplicity Is Beautiful

Camp @ Port Hacking

2010-03-31T14:40:00.002+11:00

yesh church camp is here once again. starting this friday till monday woohoo.
really looking forwad to it ^^
2 of my frens who do not attend Focus have decided to join us. furthermore almost all the christians in IH are going *yeah* woohoo

although I really do hope tat you will go, but since you do not like being force to do something you don't like, is alrite then. really missed the fun times we had.... well it will be my precious memory =)

will try to capture every church camp moments

NotRealising......

2010-03-02T14:41:00.004+11:00

Before I realised it, you are far away.
I have only myself to blame for not knowing the obvious. Is there some ways that I could go back to April 2009 and relive it? haha I guess not. wat 's done cannot be undone....

Becoz of my personality and my slogan "Not Esther Kok Style.."I got this end point instead.
sometimes I wonder wat blinded me? I would always tell myself that let nature takes its course but I will always be thinking too much and ended up putting a shield before I even get to know that person...

besides, the personality, I guess timing also plays an important part....
I always fail to react at apropriate times....
I even let him saw my geekish look, "I seriously dun no I should laugh or cry.."

(via Cassel)

Will I be given one more chance?

BeforeIRealiseItIsAlmostMarch

2010-02-26T09:43:00.002+11:00

Is been sometime since I last post hoho. just plain lazy and worn out haha.
CNY in Sydney, erm as compared to back home is = not much of a celebration haha. no deco ard sydney except for Chinatown, and worst of all it has been raining for the whole chu1 and 2. until one of my fren's car got flooded.
I am just so thankful that I have wonderful ppl ard me who were there to share this celebration day with me. so bless =)

Well this year's chu1 fell on the same as day Valentine's day. hehe as usual no date or BF so I shopped my day away with my close frens hoho. Bought a mini TV. whee finally my own TV

If it is just so easy to say I Love You.

(via annasmile)

If Life For Once Can be Carefree

(via danzema)

Am looking forward to tomorrow's craft fair and korean food for dinner woohoo.

Grad Camp 2010

2010-02-05T16:42:00.001+11:00

Grad camp 2010 is here.
Leaving later at 7pm
woohoo, looking forward =)

A 2D/2N camp hoho

Break was just too short

2010-02-04T14:15:00.004+11:00

am back. =)
yesh the break is just too short.... although was back for 6weeks, feels like is not even enough =(

now is work work and more work >_<

加油，一定行 woohoo

Just found out that OSIM products are much more expensive as compared to s'pore eekkks.
There goes my Ukimono..... haiz.........

Haiz....

2010-01-31T04:56:00.002+11:00

GOing back tml, sianz to the max.
but on the other hand, I am much closer to home hurhur.

This holiday is GOOD.
accomplished most stuffs. travelling with family and frens, fren's ROM party and major catch-up sessions.
really glad to be back.

I really pray that the next time I come back I will be a better person, better daughter, fren and cousin.

人生短短几十年，不应该太过记较
I pray that I will be a happy person, and not one that often think too much =)

feeling like a da bao

2010-01-23T03:02:00.003+11:00

having mixed feeling now = da bao hurhur

holidays in HK and cambodia were just awesome. really hope I could turn back time
*if only i could turn back time....*

I wanted to shout at the top of my lung = I dun want to go back >_<
but reality I don't have a choice haiz.....
well looking on the bright side, I am abit closer to returning home hurhur

went back TP today, none seems has change, familiar bus route, buildings, lecturers etc. brought ultimate memories. rushing to LT, toilet in the morning, many exams to conquer in a row, great frenships.

btw watch Hachiko with mum *hoho is been a long time since I watched a movie with my mum haha. Is a super nice show, "dogs are really men's best fren" Love the dog alot hoho

just hope tat time will pass slowly =)

Holiday whee

2010-01-10T03:35:00.003+11:00

Just came back from Hong Kong =) flying off to Cambodia tomorrow.
erm abit rush but is FUN FUN FUN hurhur

Excited and exhuasted at the same time whee

Angkor wat here I come =)

Happy 2010

2010-01-01T16:22:00.003+11:00

Time sure flies =)
is 2010 hohoho
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE =)

Looking back in the year 2009, I am just so glad that I came to know 亲情的可贵 and how important frenships are. 相遇是一种缘分 *I must really remember this to heart* and not take anyone for granted.

In the year 2010, I dun really have much NY resolution, just pray that:

Be close to God
I will be able to find someone that I could love and above all Godly
To be able to complete each task that I have promised

Back to Christmas 2009, have a mini christmas celebration with my gals and also my family

The food prepared by us hohoho

Strawberry shortcake bought by darling =)

Pre-party shot, haha very 自恋 with EVIL TWIN

San Ban *whee*

Everyone's pressies and hampers haha

the lovely gals

ending with me and pressies

unfortunately no pics frm my family christmas party cos we pretty much busy pairing up with each other to play against the computer in tennis (WII of course haha)

My wonderful Christmas Times in S'pore =)

More updates coming up hoho

HomeSweetHome

2009-12-23T15:27:00.002+11:00

am home for 5days =)
food are good, rest is good, everything is just wonderful

onthejourneyback =)

my family brought be to Jalan Kayu for prata after my arrival =) woohoo *love*
banana on prata = good *yay*

Furthermore there was bean curd hurhur = always will be my favourite dessert (is just different from Aussie, there was no ginger, which was what I prefer hoho)

Time seems to pass by real fast when one is having fun >_< therefore I am going to enjoy each single moment to the fullest.

Going to meet up with our postdoc later =)

Hope I will be in time to be back to help in muffins-making for tml family christmas party *whee*

TheFeelingofPre-departure

2009-12-17T14:20:00.002+11:00

Tomorrow is the day =) *whee*
Feeling now? in the state of disorderness haha
Lots of things to do, so little time -_-

Can't imagine the tons of things I have to do when I get back. *aww*

Well, I guess I will enjoy my time in s'pore to the fullest hurhur.
I really do need a good recharge *beam* after the whole year of endless experiments at ungodly timing *wink*

Just check-in, going home later to pack luggage and tidy up my room and I am ready to go tomorrow afternoon woohoo.

Christmas Hampers

2009-12-16T14:06:00.002+11:00

I love to prepare gifts haha. especially Christmas =). A season to be generous.
2 hampers to prepare: One consists of food and the other random.

Preparing food hamper is not that difficult, but as for the random, is tough >_<
furthermore gender netural -_-

One of the gifts = masks..... was chatting with a fren, a guy the other day.....

Me: Masks for guy, sisi?
Fren: no leh, where got sisi.
Me: Guy uses mask?
Fren: I think so.
Me: you use?
Fren: nope
Me: and then? (giving him the "you dine use still say guy uses mask" look)
Fren (irritated): 我现在就买来用给你看。

haha so I guess mask = gender neutral.

Few more days then it will be home sweet home *wink*

GoodFoodEverywhere ^^

2009-12-15T12:40:00.002+11:00

Dinner at Hurtsville was just finger-licking good. no words can describe. their 小龙包and升煎包 are to die for. I am a sucker for these two. This place by far is the best in sydney. haiz but is super inaccessible. so need a car. O_O is a 40mins drive from college. ohh... is simply just worth it =)

The contented ppl as follows.

up till now i still think that we should have ordered another plate of 升煎包. arhhh regretted. when is the next time we get to go? during CNY? Maybe? hurhur

Achacha =)

2009-12-11T14:51:00.003+11:00

Just met an old gentleman who produces Achacha fruit (a fruit cultivated in tropical Amazon Basin of Bolivia) and apparently my school food science students are doing some testing on it. He is so nice to give me one to try hurhur. Brighten up my gloomy day. The fruit is shown below.

erm, to me it looks abit like an apricot, it is actually a cousin of the mangosteen gonna try it tonight =)
Interested ppl can visit the website Achacha

Result for today = crapped.
well shld not let experiment control my mood. I can take failure hurhur
endure failure = strong = 不死劲神

ThingsJustDon'tGoAccordingToWhatIPlan

2009-12-11T09:27:00.003+11:00

seriously, is simply just too ultimate fustrating.....
waking up at 5am or 6am to go to lab just to get stuffs done so as to go home next week. but results just don't seem to come out right.... and I can't even seem to know the reason why...

Hence I have concluded..... things just don't go or never will be the way I have planned...
irritating to the max....

Arghh.... Seriously is stressed to the core.

夏の気持ち

2009-11-23T11:16:00.002+11:00

Summer is officially here
was extremely hot yesterday, ard 42 degrees , my room was like sauna, couldn't really sleep properly.... the wind was strong but the air was hot.... so unbearable.
although s'pore is hot and humid all year round, but aussie summer, for me personally is much worse as it is so dry that it makes the air hard to breath.
the chances of getting heat stroke is higher....

Have to endure I guess hurhur....

Dropping By....

2009-11-12T16:15:00.004+11:00

Is been sometime since I last blog....
Lots of stuffs happened.....

It suddenly occur to me "亲情的可贵" which I finally realised a few weeks ago. how can I have such selfish thinking? Being frens, family and relative are all 缘分. and I forgot the importance of it..... I always thought that with me or w/o me, it does not make any difference but I am absolutely wrong.
So I have decided to chop chop finish my PhD and faster go home.

This decision actually perfects my last post. 现在就只能在远处的一旁看着他。找一个我爱和爱我的人，真的有那么难吗？

Grandpa, Rest in Peace. You will always be in our memory.

在远处看一个人也是一种幸福

2009-10-07T09:16:00.003+11:00

喜欢一个人，非要在一起不可吗？
我认为如果只是在远处一旁的看着他就足够了。
我知道很傻，旁人也看不下去。
但是以其造成他的不便，我认为不说出去会比较好。
喜欢的人得到幸福，自己不也很幸福？

这对我来说已经足够了。

Happy Birthday Singapore

2009-08-09T23:44:00.002+10:00

Happy Birthday My dearest Singapore =)

Really fortunate to call myself Singaporean. No matter where I am, I will remind myself that Singapore is where I belong and is my root.

This is home truely where I know I must be.

2009-07-27T18:46:00.003+10:00

Life is generally oki. ppl are loveable. although there are still ups and downs. BUT I have this feeling that I am in the dumps. WHY??? Is it due to my sinful nature? most of the times.......... I felt like just breaking down and cry, I felt like I was fighting a war alone......... however, being older adds on to this feeling. ppl ard expect more if you are older. they think that we should be mature at all times, not to whine and most importantly setting good role model for the young ones....... theorectically we should....... but we too have our own problems to deal with........

feeling really tired now...........

Pictures Speak A Thousand Words

2009-07-08T10:56:00.002+10:00

Some Pics from my birthday ^^
The day that I turned 25. do I look like old hag? hopefully not -_-

The gals from 402 and 419

The guys

Extra?? haha acting emo

Batch starting from 2008/2009

2 young and 2 old haha = oops they were my senoirs hehe

so so very happy. In midst of the hardships and unclear results. I am just so thankful that I have these wonderful ppl around me that provide laugthers and comforts.

One Quarter Century ^^

2009-06-30T14:49:00.003+10:00

yup I am officially one quarter century year old last friday. have a memoriable day.
Thank you so much for the messages from my love ones. was so surprised to received birthday msges at 12 am on the 26 of June. *happy* muakie love you gals alot.

I celebrated my day with my labmates. korean fusion and Lindts after were yummy ^^ finger licking good
Love the presents, jacket and jurlique products. muakie love you guys and gals.
who say Phd students are geeks? we are the cool ones haha =)

this year's birthday cakes from labmates and church frens were "hazel nuts choco cake" is really good, delicious to the max.

Love you all alot. Thanks for making this day so special for me.

just finished my first year review, going to watch transformer after this woohoo =) *delighted*

Almost Forget

2009-06-09T13:22:00.002+10:00

in the midst of suffering..... when I think that everything just seems to go downhill.......... I would always almost to forget that I have the greatest gift on earth that is "the love from God" because of what Jesus has done, I could turn to God for prayer. talking to a brother in christ this morning is definitely encouraging. he told me that whatever that is happening, God is always by our side. and he knows everything and what we have been through.

Although things seem to not turning out well and most of the time, seriously I really thought of giving up. I will always ask myself to look on the bright side that I have my love ones around me that truely love and support the way I am *you guys know who you are ^_^* I am really thankful for that =)

Alive and Kicking

2009-06-03T16:11:00.002+10:00

Yes still alive =)

did tons of things in the last weeks despite so many stuffs on hand.
I managed to go shopping woohoo, so happy. I bought a coat, the book "influence" and got my pretty in pink. *ultimate delighted*

Went equip conference the other saturday which titled "the Queen and I" = the book of Esther. I love equip, it is a women conference. after the sermon, I really see the book of Esther at a different light. I always wonder why is the book of Esther doing in the old testimont? It is then that I realise she is the imperfect Jesus. (pointing that Jesus is coming).

back to do work, have lots to do until end of June. I really hope I can finish my stuffs on time. Is not an option, is a must that I have to finish.

My dearest Xue xue, Happy Birthday to you.
Enjoy this day to the fullest. Muakie Love love

Finally......

2009-05-21T11:22:00.002+10:00

Peaceful Life is Back. I have to clarify that he is a good guy and he has 5Cs O_O. But there are too many underlying issues between us. up till now, if he does like me is still a big QUESTION MARK. I dun think I am that of a blur and slow to not realise his feeling -_-"', apparently to my seniors, I am. well, if a guy likes you, you will definitely feel something right.

they say that if a guy doesn't like you he would not make this kind of jokes = he is hinting you.... Hello we are talking about "him", wat makes you think that he would not? he is so proud and arrogant, of course he can be so evil to me. If one knows him.... one will know that I am not the type of gal for him -_-.

喜欢一个人不是要让她知道的吗？
虽然暗示也是一种让她知道的行示。
可是你根本都不喜欢我啊。
为什么要那么无聊呢？
我有那么好玩吗？

Procrastination

2009-05-16T13:58:00.002+10:00

How to not procrastinate?? is saturday.... and the weather is so beautiful.
but WHY AM I STUCK IN THE LAB.............. arghhhhhhh............ if I got the results I want, I dun mind staying for hours. but I am not........... -_-"' is really painful. Sometimes I wonder.... Am I not using my brain enough?? really getting very tired......... every morning when I wake up.... I ask myself........ why am I not getting results???? I have been doing this for months.......... well have to work my brain harder I guess.

Yesterday's evangelistic Nite is great. I went for the elective - science, evolution and God, Can they co-exist?
well in conclusion, they can. BUT they are not trying to prove each other wrong. in other words, science prove how the earth works and making the earth a better place to live in. whereas God, gives us the answer to why are we here in the first place? which science can't explain. as for evolution, man evolve from ape. there is no sufficient prove to it.

本来就是那么平静。
为什么要说那么无聊的事情呢？
什么是喜欢？
喜欢不是双方面的吗？
我很不明白为什么要只是问我呢？为什么不去问他呢？
如果你们只是为了开玩笑，我认为不好笑。
下个星期应该会平静了吧。

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-11T11:38:00.002+10:00

Message to my mum:
''You were always be there and your arms were always open when I needed a hug. Your heart understood when I needed a friend. You never fail to be strict and your gentle eyes were stern when I needed a lesson. Your strength and love has guided me and gave me wings to fly''

Just want to say a BIG THANK YOU for everything you have done for me.

I phoned my mum yesterday afternoon to say "Happy Mother's Day" to her.

Ringg.....

Mum: Hello
Me: Yo, morning
Mum: Why? Something happened?
Me: No Ah, Just want to say "Happy Mother's Day" to you.
Mum: Ohh thank you. but dun scare me like that. I got a shock when I see an oversea's no. at this time of the day.
Me: .......

It turned out to be me scaring her?? my mum is just so adorable.

Love???

2009-05-07T11:28:00.004+10:00

Love is a number of emotions and is a strong affection that couples with attachment to that someone really special.

somehow, i felt that "Love" is weak and baseless. *Me and mine opinion only*

Someone just told me the other day that "Love is Blind". yup is true in some sense.
But to me, I see it rather as "Love is ONLY A FEELING". if you can get yourself to fall in love, you can definitely get yourself out of love.

feeling very FUZZY right now. I really dun like the idea of ppl matching me up just like that with a guy......... furthermore is a guy that I am really scared -_-
although he has 5Cs according to s'pore standard. erm, his height is not very tall, overall "ok". does that mean that I have to accept?
"No what"

为什么要说如果呢？
如果跟本就不存在啊。
本来就是那么简单，
为什么要把事情复杂化呢？
真的无法理解。

2009-05-01T09:46:00.002+10:00

updating my blog =)
Reason?? is the month of May and I want to have some entry in it. haiz routine life, have practically none to update.

wait... I have some =)
My darling shushu came down to visit, so happy to see her. she and James baked a cake, coconut and banana. is really nice!!

My prof's birthday so we have a mini celebration with him =).

My brain is failing me nowsdays, I couldn't seem to remember most of the thing. I guess I might be too tired. haha.

让时间淡化一切吧！
世界没有肯定的结局，只有不死的心。
我真的不想想如果的事。

love Issue......

2009-04-20T11:32:00.002+10:00

was talking to my junior over MSN now. discussing her LOVE issue that she encountered during her exchange. listening to wat she says, it seems like a mirror-image of me and "老爸" (aka my coursemate) a couple of years ago. well not trying to bitch abt him, he is a very nice guy, although we have not been contacting much. well I must say sometimes guys can be really nice during the GET TO KNOW YOU period but after that they just ignore you or sld I say revert to their normal self. so my advice to her is that there is nothing she can do, and is obvious that he is not a least interested in her. wat she can do is to keep those beautiful memories that he has once created.
well she asked me why is it so hard to find that someone that she likes and likes her back. seriously, i have not a single clue abt it, if I do.... I will not be single up till now. like i have mentioned previously, the one you dun like but likes you is likely the one that you will spend your life with. this is the reality, so accept it.

Long Weekend ^^

2009-04-09T19:31:00.002+10:00

woohoo long weekend is gonna be here soon.
so happy and excited, church camp, here we come
is down at Port Hacking, this year camp is on sexuality = how men and women, creation of God live under God's rule =), looking forward to the talks and bible studies.

stuck in lab now, going back SOON to pack my bags and get ready for tomorrow woohoo.

LoveLove

Tutorial Arghhh...........

2009-03-30T20:05:00.002+11:00

Trying to solve tutorial qns now for wed class. is so confusing....... I dun remember doing such difficult qns during my undergrad yrs..... *scratch head* How am I going to tutor something that I have no idea???? so fustrating.......... with my auto-clean up brain system, it makes everything even more difficult.
Oki back to reading the lecture notes. I have never read lecture notes in such a detail. -_-

Sadded.......

2009-03-26T09:42:00.005+11:00

while i was looking at the entries of my blog, most of them sound really sad....... So i came to a conclusion that i only blog when i am sad. is it true? well am feeling really sad right now... why is it when i thought that we are getting closer... you suddenly just drifted far far away..... we are just so close to each other but everytime i just feel that we are like miles apart.... it is time to come to an end as he has someone in mind... the worst is that he told me i will be the first to know if it does or does not work out... i think ah mic is right, platonic really did sometimes 害死我。

最遥远的距離，
不是天与地，
不是天涯海角，
而是我就站在你面前，
你却不知道我喜欢你。

although i do feel sad, but i am really happy for him. i do hope that the gal will treasure him like he does.

Is it really so hard to find someone that i truely love. Ans = YES
life is always like that, the one you love most, is unlikely the one you will end up with. while the one who love you the most is likely the one that you will spend your whole life with......
which is better?

PhD

2009-02-25T11:40:00.003+11:00

Got this off my senior. we were laughing our heads off when we looked at this.

Those who are currently doing PhD, which PhD character you are??
What "PhD" really Stands for:
* Patiently hoping for a Degree
* Piled higher and Deeper
* Professorship? hah! Dream on!
* Please hire. Desperate.
* Physiologically Deficient
* Pour him (or her) a Drink
* Philosophically Disturbed
* Probably headed for Divorce
* Pathetically hopeless Dweeb
* Probably heavily in Debt
* Parents have Doubts
* Professors had Doubts
* Pheromone Deprived
* Probably hard to Describe
* Patiently headed Downhill.
* Permanent head Damage
* Pulsating heaving Disaster?
* Pretty homely Dork* Potential heavy Drinker
* Professional hamburger Dispenser
* Post hole Digger
* Professional hair Dresser
* Progressive heart Doctor
* Piano hauling Done
* Pro at hurling Darts
* Professional hugger of Dames
* Private house Detective
* Pizza hut Driver
* Pretty heavily Depressed
* Pretty heavy Diploma
* Promised hell Down-the-road
* Processed here"

As for me is: "Patiently hoping for a Degree"
haha so true huh. but sometimes when things dun go our way, is fustrating and we all will be thinking PhD = Patiently headed Downhill.
therefore, we should be encouraging to one another and go forward together ^O^

2009-02-23T19:16:00.002+11:00

blogging in the office at this hour of the day = totally depressing.... hence no title at all. wat time is it now?? 7.17pm.... arhh and I am still running my calibration. is good that college provides food now... if not I have to trouble the guys to pack for me..... no updates recently as my days are sososo routine.

Just finish a book titled "Remind me why I need a man." is a good novel to read. hilarious. feel like is narrating my personal love life haha. seriously, i do need ppl to remind me to find myself a boyfren, is really easy to forget =(. not trying to find an excuse or watsoever, life has been busy and hence having a boyfren = troublesome. I always complain that I have no time for myself, how am I going to entertain my boyfren. well on the other hand, if all my close ones around me are attached, i think i will start to panic. at the moment, sad to say, is my least priority in life. I have lots of stuffs that I have not yet accomplish.... let's just say. God is in control in all situations. If he decides to give me a gift of marriage, the right will come.

Looking forward to movie tomorrow for "He's just not that into you". everyone says is good so is a MUST watch. time to relax. although weekends just passed.... I dine even have a rest at all.....

so movie here we come.

Life so Far....

2009-02-05T10:23:00.002+11:00

was telling ah mic that I am already back for a week. time seems to fly faster than what I have imagine. is been a rather routine life.

school from 9 to 5 or 6, after that cook rice for the 2 guys to eat, watch anime and sleep = boring haha. is a good thing that I dun have to cook *clap hands*

although is been a week...... well I am still NOT USE TO IT... arhhhh.... home is the best *thumbs up*
really miss my family and frens alot, I tried not to cry at the airport cos I dun want to see their sad faces. haha we used to joke saying that "dun start crying, if you start I am going to start also haha"

I have made up my mind.... I will stop persuing what I think is not possible..... after being quite close to him..... the differences between us are getting significant. Is better to stay as a sister to him....

To all my love ones, Jia you and Take care =) Love Love

Update!!!

2009-01-04T02:12:00.003+11:00

First of all, HOME SWEET HOME
yesh I am HOME, woohoo. really happy to be back ^O^
is so true that if one has lots of things on hand, blogging = minimum. well I am not sure abt others... but to get my ass to seat in front of the laptop... I rather watch TV haha.
well what have I done after I touched down???
I celebrated christmas and new year with my love ones =) is great to be around with them. lots of fun and laughter. met up with my BS ppl and got one of my wisdom tooth pluck. not to mention shopping, shopping and MORE shopping.

erm, I dun have much new year resolution. just a few, which is to stay happy and be able to spend time with my love ones =)

Should Have

2008-12-18T11:48:00.002+11:00

Lab gonna close tomorrow at around noon -_- so that means I should go home on saturday instead...... ahhh why I booked my return ticket on monday?? *馬鹿者*
BUT looking on the bright sight ^_^ I can do more shopping on the weekends, provided there is anything for me to see and shop haha. erm.... I prefer to shop for a purpose, like getting something cos I dun really like window shopping *seems like a guy yah??* man trap in a woman's body -_-"' most importantly get to help out in Sunday School this Sunday too. Woohoo looking forward.
Due to summer holiday..... all my church frens have gone like 80%. so the remaining 20% will be having Korean BBQ down at Mitchell's place today. *happy and looking foward*

Esther saying, "いただきます"

I love BBQ, I think I will organise one when I get back to S'pore ^_^

Blur like a BIG 章魚

2008-12-16T14:22:00.003+11:00

I was happily counting down my days to go home. and guess what.... I forgot to apply for another visa to get out. haha super sotong. when I told my frens, they were like why you so sotong one -_-. went this morning to get it and yesh I am all ready to go home this coming monday. the officer is so nice to grant me the visa without asking for the reason. =)
Very happy indeed

Christmas caroling with the church kids and elderly tonight at Horban House *楽しみ*

My First Sunday School

2008-12-15T12:16:00.002+11:00

My first time experience taking care of kids of age 0 - 2 yrs in Sunday School. They are so adorable. I am not good with younger kids especially not this age range, but I must say I really did have a fantastic time with them. Playing with them and accompanying them to eat their morning stacks. Cordy is the name of the kid that I am taking care of. She looks just like a baby angel. Kids are really the GIFT from God.
I am going again next week =)
When will I have one of my own?? *Wondering*

Then little children were brought to Jesus, that He might put His hands on them and pray; but the disciples rebuked those who brought them. But He said, Leave the children alone! Allow the little ones to come to Me, and do not forbid or restrain or hinder them, for of such [as these] is the kingdom of heaven composed. And He put His hands upon them, and then went on His way. Matthew 19: 13-15

I Will Be Here

2008-12-08T10:38:00.003+11:00

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

I will be here

And Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for years
So I will be here
(Will be together)
I will be here.

*I Love this song alot, the perfect song for wedding. I love it the instant he sang it. How I wish I will be able to hear him sing this song once again =)

どーもちゃん

2008-12-04T10:55:00.004+11:00

Finding stuffs to entertain myself ^O^ as my mood now is really yucky and gloomy. was browsing through the internet and I came across どーもちゃん. I came to know him through Shushu during our poly days. he is cute isn't he?

I got this from Shushu as one of my christmas present =) "どーもちゃん saying こんにちわ"

Shushu's one at the time is this. haha we all have different gestures of どーもちゃん. Ah mic later bought us the rockstar どーもちゃん. looking at these small accessories brought back lots of good old times' memories =) those were our days.

Haha funny??? どーもちゃん in the LAB. Wish I can put this on my working bench =) I guess the safety officer will say "hey is a hazard you know.." -_-

Other cute mechandise ^O^

Cap

bag
woohoo I want that..... They have that in Aussie.... so cute aren't they??? haiz.... but my frens were like, "ehh you know you how old already right??? still carry such a childish bag???" -_- "haiz.... why cannot???" and so I dine buy it in the end..... O_O

Tada どーもちゃん USB, hehe I want this too..... will brighten up my day whenever I typed my report ^O^

This reminded me of the tokidoki USB I wanted to get

So cute ^_^ but is too difficult to find it or I should say I am too lazy to search for it haha and I think they will be super expensive -_-

Some cute stuffs to brighten up my day ^O^

The month of Dec

2008-12-02T12:01:00.004+11:00

Is it me or is it really that the time just pass by like that.... is already the month of Dec..... woo that is fast. When I think to myself I was only back to Aussie for like abt 4 mths. however it seems a long time... i guess due to the many stuffs that happened. both good and bad. o_O another 20 days to go and I will be home sweet home ^-^. feeling kinda sad now as ALL MY CLOSE FRENS IN COLLEGE HAVE GONE BACK. I woke up today with a feeling of emptiness in me. college alone now with lots of snacks left by Jason -_- which is good at least I dun have to make a trip to buy snacks due to my ultimate laziness haha.

went out with my coursemates the other day. were finding out what were our frens doing back in s'pore. everyone seems GOOD. Is almost one yr ever since we finished our last paper -_-, times flies..... although we have not seen each other for a very long time, we still have stuffs to talk and not being awkward = GOOD *I personally dislike the awkwardness*. Is really good to have gathering once in awhile ^O^.

In a week's time, the lab will be much more quiet as most of my labmates are going home too. Was telling Jason yesterday when he was packing his stuffs that I also want to go home -_-.

Be patient is my turn soon ^O^

Congrates (^O^)

2008-12-01T09:41:00.002+11:00

Congrates to Dan and Fat ^_^

29Nov2008 marks the new chapter of Dan and Fat 's life = Husband and Wife

I met this cute couple at the end of last year at FOCUS church. They are the student ministers of our church. They are the coolest couple I have ever met. So funny at times. I just Love them ^-^. I really thank God that I have the opportunity to know them =). They are really encouraging and good role model for us.

Attended their church wedding at St Thomas Anglican. The wedding was so sweet. even Mitchell felt like getting married after that.

A beautiful reading from the NT:
John 4:10-19
In this is love: not that we have loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the atoning sacrifice for our sins.
Dear friends, if God so loved us, then we also ought to love one another. No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God resides in us, and his love is perfected in us. By this we know that we reside in God and he in us: in that he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son to be the Savior of the world.
If anyone confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God resides in him and he in God. And we have come to know and to believe the love that God has in us. God is love, and the one who resides in love resides in God, and God resides in him. By this love is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment, because just as Jesus is, so also are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears punishment has not been perfected in love. We love because he loved us first.

Isn't this LOVE great. I love these verses alot. Often I forget and am sad about not having a boyfren or not being love. BUT if I see it on the other angle, I am really blessed with all the love ones around me. frens and relatives back home and my brothers and sisters in christ. most importantly the LOVE FROM GOD ~ In this is love: not that we have loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the atoning sacrifice for our sins.

Congratulation to Dan and Fat once again. *praying for them to have a perfect marriage*

I believe the one destine for me will appear one day ~ Gift of Marriage from God

Counting

2008-11-28T14:23:00.002+11:00

Counting, counting and busy counting.....
have previously mentioned.... results are out so one can go about calculating their marks for each sem for their honors WAM... so my juniors are like BUSY counting their honors WAM. up till now I still do not get it... why the school gave us like the sem WAM and not the honors one?? *scratching my head* Cos ours is like a direct honors thingy so isn't the honors WAM is more important?? well there is no major difference in the overall but if you did well in first year is NOT COUNTED..... and so.... busy counting away.....

Have been consoling one of my frens yesterday cos he missed class one by abit... is like 0.7%..... felt sad for him.... cos I understd how he felt..... I am never easy with my marks...... I remembered once scoring like 75% I was like "what the @#%$%%$^#$@#" my mum had to raised her voice like "your mark was oki already... can you just be contented or not..." and my dad was like "ya loh is not like you scoring 57%" so... even now I am still not contented with my marks..... my mum was like so nervous when I told her I got back my result yesterday, haha is always like tat o.O she used to complain saying that if this goes on she will get severe heart-attack one day X_X is it tat bad??? =(

so counting, counting and counting are what most my juniors are doing now. they even come up with a spread sheet to calculate the honors WAM.
well some are worried about not getting class one and others are worried about not getting university medal.

well I rather count $$$ and not marks -_- but reality is so cruel.... I am so broke that I not have much $$$ to count... peanut salary

Results O.O

2008-11-28T10:27:00.002+11:00

Results for sem 2 were released yesterday at around 10 plus. It still concerned me oki haha cos I did take "1" module this sem O.O the result came out oki ^^. I was quite worried as I have a dream the other day that I scored 58 -_-. have a chat with one of my junior, Yossy, she scored well, average HD. but she said that this sem is the lowest WAM that she had gotten over these 4 yrs. she used to get like 92 for average. *horrified* I know she is smart but haha maybe I am just not tat smart so I was amazed o.O really do miss my undergrad times, although the last sem is really crappy but overall is good. I just miss the times when I was younger and not having so much unneccessary worries *if only I could turn back time*

have just met up with supervisor abt making plans for the next 6mths after I come back from s'pore. Is a whole lot of stuffs to do. *I can do it as it is the route that I have chosen so no regret, slapping on my face to tell myself is time to get serious as honeymoon period is OVER*

To my juniors who got 1st class, CONGRATULATION, I am just so proud of you guys and gals.

*The route to happiness*

Gloomy Day =(

2008-11-27T12:15:00.005+11:00

although is only like noon, I can forsee myself not having a good day..... got an email from my other prof this morning and tat goes my day =( I know that she meant well cos this shows that she is concern abt me even though I am not her student anymore. I am pushing my research all along but still not much results are coming my way...... due to the end of the year.... booking of equipment on-lab and off-lab is nearly not possible.... I am scared myself too whenever I am typing my report, I fail to see any graphs......
No result = Not working hard enough??? I bet to differ..... *moody to the max*

The worst of all is... I have lost my appetite after the severe food poisoning.... I want to EAT.... but everytime I do eat alot..... I ended up having this cramp in the stomach and after which vomitting...... arhhh..... so I have to eat a little at a time.... "A LITTLE" can you imagine??? =(

catching a movie tonight.... hopefully it turns out well.... I don't want anymore whining after a shitty day but I guess is unlikely.... why does young gal like to whine to guy like abt 5 yrs older??? or in the first place why do they have to whine??? Did I ever whine when I was like in my 20s??? I hope not -_- is really irritating..... if the guy dine call you then dine call lah why have to ask me why he called me and not you??? how annoying is tat??? as if I know the answer to that.... maybe I just simply dun understd or rather I am a guy trap in a gal's body which my dad used to say -_-.... and so I behave more like a guy which dun really care abt this small detail....
*I should be more caring and loving to the younger ones I know but in times like this..... is really getting on my nerve....*

well like the gals say: Looking forward to the FESTIVE SEASON and 22 dec =)

I Do Know

2008-11-26T11:53:00.003+11:00

I do know that to him I am only his sister in Christ - I am contented seriously as I could still have a chance to talk to him and have dinner together.

I do know that he knew about me believing in platonic frenship - he has once asked me if I am the type of gal tat believe in platonic frenship? and I said "yes" immediately *feel like hitting myself on the head* why do I have to say that to him???

I do know that I treat all the guys equally nice = giving them the wrong idea - I really do want him to know that he is that someone special to me.... How do I go abt telling him now??? haiz..... is never going to happen *sad*

I do know that he knew about me not going after guy younger than me - have a discussion with the boys and him the other day abt our "ideal" - they were like why not going out with younger guys?? age doesn't matter..... sad to say... to me it matters alot.... so wat am I ranting now?? ahhh why do you have to be younger than me??? why is your hometown so far away from me???

I do know that things have changed back home - as long as my gals are happy and not mentally tired, I will be happy too. To me, my gals are really important and I don't want them to be mentally stressed out. if certain issues don't work out, there is no point forcing.... I choose to stay silent not because I don't care abt the situation but is just that I feel I wasn't there the whole time and I am in no position to make any comment. Even if I don't have a say.... I do hope I can be a neutral party in this situation. Not that I am being two-headed snake.... Is just that each individual of you gals has really left distinct marks in my life.

I do know that 3 yrs for research is short - wat am I doing now during office hour?? I should be doing research.

Just putting my thoughts down..... Ok get back to lab -_-

I may seem strong to strangers...... But in times of gloomy days.... I really hope I do have that special someone that is always there for me to lean on

God and His Beautiful Creation

2008-11-25T11:56:00.002+11:00

Got this picture from precious moment inspiration.
How cute is it?? ^_^

To Me Every Hour of The Light and Dark is a Miracle. Every Cubic Inch of Space is a Miracle.
~Walt Whitman

The Day, Water, Sun, Moon, Night - I Do Not Have to Purchase These Things with Money.
~Plautus

How amazing is this. Our loving God has indeed created all the things that we need.

Is it??

2008-11-25T11:25:00.003+11:00

Is it because of the resemblance of someone?
Is it because he is a Christian?
Is it because he is of height >178cm?
Is it because he has dark skin color?
Is it because he is doing a degree that I always wanted to do?
Is it because of the way he leads BS?
Is it because of his kindness to the ones around him?
Is it because of his seriousness at work?
Is it because of the fact that he has meet all my criteria?

or is it......

Well... like I have mentioned before "So near yet so far...."

The reality fact is that:
His hometown is miles away from mine
His age is way younger than me

the worst is that half of the time we don't agree with each other......

The only thing I do hope for now is that, he will be able to pull through the exam that is going to happen in like 20 mins time. due to the difference in our major.... praying is the only thing I can do for him.
*I do have confidence in him*

Dinner @ Zilver

2008-11-20T14:44:00.002+11:00

Dinner at Zilver with seniors ^_^
Is a special occasion as is two of my seniors' (Ian and Maria) bday celebration as well as one exchanged senior's (Rothman) farewell.
Food Food Food here we come ^O^

First to be serve is tada:

Peking duck, *Yummy. is sososo crispy"
When I bite it, is really juicy and is only the skin "slurp"

Scallop with tong fen, one of my favourite. the XO sauce is just so delicious.

erm.. the remains of the duck from the peking dish. not my favourite but is good too, healthy ^_^

Followed by 7 dishes, we were so full, contented, is not pricy at all which is GOOD.

My favourite of the day ^_^: prawn cooked with salted egg. is just so tasty that i felt like floating after taking a bite *yummy, finger-licking good*

Crazy bunch from Rm 402 and 419 = Engineers Unite

Happy Birthday to Ian and Maria
Safe Journey to Roffy aka Rothman

With us around is always playing and eating ^_^

So So So Sweet

2008-11-19T13:29:00.003+11:00

I have to blog about this ^O^
My senior's boyfren is so very ultimately SWEET. Is her birthday yesterday, her boyfren baked a cake for her and went over to her place at 12 midnight. a huge tiramisu cake. it tastes superb *slurp*

He even went to paddington in the early morning to get her fresh roses. how sweet is tat??? and he asked her to count the number of roses, and there are 25 roses in total (matching to her age)

Tat's not all, he even have a koala holding on to a rose. tat is so cute.

Their love and sweetness are drowning me ^O^

haha Rothmann saw this he was like "oh I am so jealous". I was like "no you should look up to kiendy as a good role model and be sweet to your future gal fren".

Rothmann: chey....she should do this to me and not me
Me: hey.... we are living in a new century oki.... guys must be sweeter....
Rothmann: oki lah..... I will be sweet sweet
Me: -_- (but Rothmann is a really sweet guy hehe, just teasing him only)

wahhh i want too.... like i have said before.... good guys are all taken......
Will there be any left for me??? I hope there is please....

In Deep Thoughts......

2008-11-17T16:01:00.002+11:00

Went through Proverbs 31 in both bible study as well as sunday sermon last week. hearing these verses are not the first time, one of the lady preacher has preached during the women conference a few months ago. the verses are written as follows:

Proverbs 31: Portrait of a Godly Woman
A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. Strength and honor are her clothing; she shall rejoice in time to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her. Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

This is how bible describes a "Godly Woman". How I wish I am like that. *working hard*
well, "Should woman take up career?" or "Taking the role of mother-hood?" These are the questions that were stuck in my head after the sermon on sunday.

My pastor mentioned that, it will be best if woman can take up the role of being a mother meaning stayed at home and look after both the kids and husband. Well upon hearing this, one will be "eekk why should I do that??" as for me I began to wonder. will i just stay at home after i have kids? or will i continue to work? I always have this qn in my mind. I have frens who once told me that I am the kind that will stay at home to be housewife and take care of my husband and kids. so they said that I shouldn't study so much cos in the end I will still be staying at home. "Will I??" can't deny the fact that I would like to see my kids grow. ppl will say tat you can still see them grow even if you are working.... but tat is different isn't it.. working... it takes up most of the time and the amount of time mingle with the kids will be at its minimum... haiz... difficult decision indeed...

coming to think of it, I worried too much haha, I dun even have a boyfren -_-
The issue abt boyfren.... someone asked me the other day, wat are my criteria in looking for "the one"?
Here goes:

must be christian
height = >178cm
skin = dark (chinese)
either malaysian or singaporean (if malaysian must be willing to come over to s'pore, cos I am not going over to malaysia
must be a graduate
must be older than me

am I asking for too much?? Ans = YES

Of course I am kidding, is just to irritate those who asked me. but he must be a christian. tat's for sure. well if you ask me, I would say someone whom i can get along with. and of course love me. I dun really go for looks, i believed is the personality that counts.

Why is it so difficult to find "the one"? Am I being PICKY?? -_-

Cake Anyone??

2008-11-15T21:49:00.003+11:00

Another entry for food, tada cake ^_^
One of my favourite dessert hehe beside ice cream. *yummy* My supervisor brought me and lab buddies to this cafe yesterday. they sell really good cakes o_O

The first to come into view is - Creme brulee

This is really good. is not too sweet as compared to the ones I had before and is so soft.

A type of Coffee cake haha, dun really know the name, my senior ordered it.

erm... is not my favourite as i dun really drink coffee. But coffee lovers should try this. Is really good.

Lime cake??

A mixed feeling of sour and sweet. unique. definitely worth the try. one tat should not be miss o_O. The white part is sweet. The surrounded green part is abit sour. In the middle part of the cake, the lime starts to gush out. taste just like lime sorbet. *slurp yummy*

My favourite of the day ^_^

Is a mixed of strawberry and mango. These two go really well. Strawberry sponge on the outside and surprised mango on the inside. *tasty*

Here comes the tarts.....
Strawberry

Mixed fruits

The crust is really good. When I eat tarts, I go for the crust hehe, my favourite ^_^

The contented Group hehe

This cafe is situated at "the rocks". the atmosphere is good and is not very pricy, value for $$ haha. Thanks supervisor for bringing us there and seniors who drove.

Not Contactable

2008-11-15T12:32:00.005+11:00

I lost my mobile phone the other day >_<
all my contacts GONE GONE -_-
Ever since I own a mobile phone, I don't think I ever once lost it.... But now I did... WHY??? why am I so careless >_<. Upset to the core.... well everything happens for a reason o_O. although everyone has been telling me tat I can change my phone *yeah, clap hands*. unfortunately, i really dun wan too. have been using it for the past 2 yrs and my dad bought it for me right before I board my plane back to Aussie. Is a memorable phone. -_- . sadded..... It felt like I have lost one arm when I realised that I have lost my phone, didn't realise I am so attached to it. haiz.... well coming back to get a new one. as the ones in Aussie is pretty out-dated >_<

Phone Phone Phone Where are you?
I am trying to find you.
Phone Phone Phone Where are you?
I am so so lost now >_<

Eating is GOOD

2008-11-13T10:51:00.005+11:00

Eating is always the best choice to pass time. I really do have the passion for eating. from junk food right down to proper food haha.
I really wanted to try Tetsuya with my parents haha ^_^. rated one of the best five restaurants in the world in 2006.

During Conference dinner haha.

Before dinner= me and senior waiting patiently to eat

Taking food ...... Hendy was like "the food is overflowing your plate"

Still taking..... even Hendy is laughing at me -_-

Tada. satisfied haha
I was telling Mian the other day that I am actually proud of myself for managing to stack all the food I want to my plate. cos i am just simply too lazy to go for second round ^_^

My favourite = Eating
even my senior is thrilled haha. I have to split my food to two plates before I could start eating. guess what??? I manage to finish all of them >_<

Desserts

Look at the spread..... they are so delicious... how can I resist??? ^O^

For me, I dun really care about the place, the atmosphere or price.... as long as is good, i will go.

Well, Esther Kok has a theory that is:
dirty place = "selling good food"
That's the reason why I like S'pore hawker food so much and is CHEAP ^_^ haha.

All is Good

2008-11-12T12:11:00.002+11:00

Yesh all the worries are GONE. and all is GOOD hehe ^_^
Just came back from Gold Coast, did tones of things there. My seniors are all so fun, or should I say crazy bunch of ppl haha. They really work hard and play even harder. During conference, we refused to sleep at night and the next day dragging our feet to the conference to listen to endless talks given by the professors. They are really inspiring but if is not related to your field it may sound really boring >_<. I have no issues with the UQ ppl whatsoever...... however after this conference..... i feel that they are just bunch of snorbbish ppl, they ask qns during conference for the sake of putting you down and not asking it because of extra knowledge. I was particularly pissed with 2 of them. one let's call him "N doped P25" and the other "UQ".

N doped P25 was there at my senior presentation and he was asking abt why my senior only took account of only 6 pts for his data. My senior was there trying to explain that the other points have already reach steady state and there is no point analyzing the data. well that "smart" N doped P25 was like "oki watever I am not very convince..." wat the hell.... we are not convinced with your findings either... did we put you down??? we dun even bother... you can fool others but not us..... my senior's presentation have been presented twice overseas... wat abt you??? if there is a mistake in taking those 6 pts, that will be raised by us and not "YOU". irritating.....

As for UQ.... it happened during my presentation....
UQ: will your slides toxic to the human cells?
Me: This I have no comment, this is not my area of research and mine part is to investigate the killing of bacteria. if you want to know this information, my labmate is focusing on this area.
UQ: so you are trying to tell me you are waiting for her results and that you two are sharing the same information to be put in your thesis?
Me: Huh?? no... this is just not my area of research... my part was to analyse the slides coating and putting them to test for bacteria and how the mechanism works...
UQ: well ok

(In my mind, i was "are you deaf or wat??" I clearly said tat is not my area of research... where the @#@$#%$^#* did you get these stupid ideas??? and dun you dare anyhow interpret my sentences....)

stupid ppl making my blood boil.....

After the conference, we went to Movie world and Dream world. all we did the next 4 days were shopping, eating, sleeping and playing. is really memorable hehe. some of the rides are pretty scary but is FUN. hope to go again hehe.

waiting patiently for dec to come so that I can go home for christmas and CNY *Happy*
Until then, work hard on my experiments *wink*

At this moment

2008-11-03T14:53:00.002+11:00

Lots of thoughts running through my mind and I am in serious constipation...... when do I ever had one?? *scratching my head in disbelief*

My frens are saying that I am being self-denying. well at some point I am.... but wat can I do beside tat.... after wat happened i still choose to deny although thinking of it feels really hurting. most of the time, is the action that makes one know the truth behind and not much of by saying it out loud. I do know is time to wake up but still I wish I could sleep a little longer... running away from reality? I guess I am.... I just want to hold on to tat something tat is so dear to me for awhile longer, or should I say I never once thinking of letting go. but I guess when the time comes... I have to... eventually. I guess is due to my own character, I am one who always look back in the past = clinging on to the past, the stuff that I have done, those who come in and out of my life.
why does life has to be so complicated? i guess is the mid 20 crisis that Qian mentioned in her blog which me and Michelle fully agree =)

haiz... furthermore stupid constipation making my days worst. stuffing myself up with ultimate lots of fibre.

All Hard Works Paid Off

2008-10-30T11:05:00.003+11:00

At this moment, I am so so happy for my juniors from Chem Engin. you all did well. woohoo. congrates. *wink* all the midnight oil burning, juggling between school reports, endless experiments and write up of thesis are OVER. this honors year has ENDED. you guys and gals deserved a pad on the shoulder. Looking at you all really brings memories back, at times is really painful, well thinking of it still brings a smile on my face.

Last week Poster Presentation:

Yossy, smartest gal hehe. am really happy for her as she put in lots of hard work into it. is really well done.

John, the poster is so well written that professors from other department ask for his soft copy version to show to other student wat a poster should look like.

Mega, my junior who did the same project as me ^_^. Cheers to E.coli haha. lots of results and beautiful graphics too. *love the poster*

Our postdocs and professor did lots of work too in correcting the posters. cheers to all.
Time flies, another year about to be gone soon.
Looking forward to the years ahead.

Puzzled

2008-10-28T11:27:00.005+11:00

Living as a christian, I often hear questions like,

You dun really look christian to me.
Gospel is the only truth in life, why do research which is something that is fake...
We should live a different lifestyle as what our non-christian friends lead.
What's important to me is the second coming of Jesus.

There are lots of other questions that I have came across but these are the ones that stuck in my head.

For Qn 1, saying that someone don't look christian, aren't we making a judgement on them?? by doing this how are we different from those pharisees in the bible.... we as christian as what I believe shouldn't be judgemental but to be encouraging to each other in our christian life and not being self-righteous.

For Qn 2, I actually got it hit right on my face, I told Michelle that this sentence came from a guy that I admire. it happened like this.... after coming back from a christian conference, this guy shared with me what he has learnt. he said something like gospel is the only real thing in the world and hence other stuffs that happened on this earth = fake. and he gave example like research... we did research for so many years and publish lots of journal papers... in the end wat do we get out of it??? our papers will just be put into a folder and no one is going to read it.... is n't it a waste of time to do it/??? and rather the whole thing is pointless and fake....

seriously i feel really hurt after listening to it... well i have to clarify something.... not all researches are trying to prove the inexistence of God or rather the BIg Bang Theory..... researches cover areas like renewable energy, self-cleaning etc. and of course I know that the gospel is the real thing. well aren't our life real as well??

I feel that what's important is having our life to be christ centered in whatever we do. and of course the word "inspire" can be match with different words. like inspire by the professors or inspire by the words from the gospel.... why should anyone think that the word inspire should be match with gospel all the time.... To me, "I have been inspired by the word of the gospel that is why i can boldly preach to others about this good news = evangelising" but what i can't understd is when I said that i am inspired by the old professors during the chem engin conference that I have attended and others tell me straight in my face commenting that, "I thought ppl can only be inspired by gospel and not other things" I was like "wat the......." the one making this sentence, aren't you being self-righteous????

Qn 3, living a different lifestyle? yes agree, i believe in spending time with God and listen to his word. but on the other hand, i have came across christian who take drugs, drink like there is no tomorrow and club all they want. are they consider christian? well is not up to me to judge but God. but one thing i must say is that the bible did quote from some verses like we as christian should not do the above constantly. A non-believer actually told me that she dun understd why she should be condemned and her frens (christian) who do all these nonsenses should be save.... I just told her that I do not have the answer for it but I told her that we should not compared with others and think tat we are better but to have the idea that we are already a sinner since birth as we human rejected God. well if we are to call ourselves christian we should refrain from doing all those..... and not making up excuse for those who do it and said that we humans are not perfect tat's why we need God in our life. if we do need God in our life should n't we refrain from doing all those bad things the moment we receive him????

Qn 4, i really admire those ppl who say that. however i have come across others that dine do well in their work and when ask why do they not put in effort and they replied to us this sentence. I mean the bible clearly said that, we do need to work and back in Genesis God works too. we have to work even harder so we will not be an obligation to others. if not by saying this sentence is just finding an excuse to his/her laziness which should not be the case. Jesus second coming to us is a huge event but since we are still living in a sin world, we have to work even harder.

well these are my thoughts. do not misinterpret what i said. I dun wan to be bombard with senseless comments.

I will make myself clear. Gospel is important and Jesus is the only way to be reconcil with God. I really thank God for sending his son to die for my sin which i dun deserve. I am waiting for Jesus second coming and at the same time work hard in what i have been given and not be lazy.

I wish......

2008-10-21T14:42:00.000+11:00

I wish I am not miles away from home
I wish I could turn back times
I wish I am more patient with my parents as they always have for me
I wish I could be there for them every now and then
I wish I am there for my gals when they need me the most
I wish I could be someone that my families and friends can depend on and to share their happiness and sorrow
I wish I am strong enough to face the challenge out there
I wish I could mend broken relationships

Lastly I just wish I will not grow up that fast...... however time never stops...... is always clicking away...... hence treasure what I have now......

Listening to the song, "slipping through my fingers" by ABBA, makes me realised how my parents feels during my process of growing up and the moment when I left home for Aussie......

I really miss my famillies and my gals back home......

Distance!!

2008-10-20T13:42:00.000+11:00

my bible study group is going for a weekend getaway down at Lake Macquarie. I am so very excited right now =). A good motivation for the entire week woohoo.
I love my group, cos we are all "adult". not that the rest of the groups are kids. is just our group is made up of people who are either working or postgraduate students.
still scratching my head wondering why postgraduate is not equal to student.... erm.... interesting....
so here we go hehe our bible study at Lake Macquarie this friday.

Nice accomodation =)
I love the accomodation, hope is the same as how it looks =)
heard from my BS leader that i have a bed to myself, which is the Kiddy bed. haha don't mind actually as i am short so shouldn't be a problem woohoo.

so how far is it??? is 1.5 hrs drive from where we are. so is near.
to us any distance that is less than 3 hrs = near. so one of my groupmates plans to drive home each day.
this reminds me sometimes back, when i travelled to my poly it took like 1.5 hrs max to go from my house to school and is consider freaking far but now "hey is so near just 1.5 hrs away". it seems that distance doesn't matter anymore.
during our conversation yesterday, we talk about the distance between states. Karen actually pointed out that a distance to be consider far is about 12 hrs. which is driving down all the way from melbourne...... i was like that is nightmare, we could easily catch a domestic plane and save lots of time.

so this proven that our thinking of distance has changed......

Darling coming over to canberra.... I am so happy =). well still wondering why canberra.... cos is a place that is super duper quiet. i guess it suits her since she plans to come over to RELAX. so perfect place hehe =)
was planning to go visit her if time permits. is just 3hrs away from sydney, i can easily take an express bus.... notice the word "just"..... this is what all my seniors have emphasize. they said it is so bloody close....

well is it??? i guess is still up to individual. o_O

Ma Ma Mia

2008-08-23T20:05:00.000+10:00

You can dance you can jive
having the time of your life
woo woo see that gal
watch that scene dig in the dancing queen

Last few sentence of the song.
well is not a repetative of my old blog.

i could remember vividly that after the musical, which was shown in singapore in the year 2004,i could only remember the first few lines of the lyric, as shown below:
you are a dancing queen
young and sweet only seventeen

and yes i just saw the movie, Ma Ma Mia. Is a good movie, even my guy fren who refused to watch it at the beginning agreed with us that it is indeed a good movie. so i do recommend everyone to watch it ^_^.

the whole movie and the songs together did bring back some old memories.
Back in the year 2004, although i love watching musical, i didn't even know that this even exist. it was until "he" who bought the tickets then i know abt it. it was one of the best musical that i have watched. all thanks to him. BUT, i failed to thank him at that time.... in fact when i have a read at my old post..... it was then i realised how spoilt i was at that time, even to complain that the seat is too far away..... w/o even thanking him....
everything abt the movie is the same as the musical except the companions are different..... I am really bless with good frens around me that are willing to watch this movie with me.

mentioning abt my old posts from my old blog. the contents are so full of laugthers and complains when i first started out... but towards the end... all have changed..... i do know that "you" have been following my old blog when i first started out and continued to follow even when our chapter ended... despite knowing tat..... i didn't even mention your name once when i was writing the old blog and not even a single post abt us being together... i am sorry that i only do realise it until now and came to realise wat you meant by "you should learn how to love someone." it took me 3 long years to know it.... wat has blinded me to fail to notice????

well this post is "DEFINITELY" not abt me wanting to change anything now nor regretting my choice that i have made 3 yrs ago....
i think the Tom, Dick and Harry out there will think otherwise.... but if "you" happen to read this post pls do not mis-interpret wat i have written.... i still stand strong with my decision that i have made. is just that this movie has made me realised how spoilt i was in the past.....
I am indeed very happy for you to have find the one in your life.... i am not trying to be strong or anything cos deep down inside my heart i know that i am not the gal for you. or should i say God do know wat is best for us. i am sill waiting for my one to appear and i know that God is in control of everything. is not like wat others have been saying... "she must be too sad to find herself a new one..." but is just that i have faith in God and i know that the route that i am walking now is the one that God chooses.
I am still thankful that you were once in my life and had contributed to an amazing chapter. our life is like a book full of different chapters be it good or bad... don't you agree??

I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream
I have a dream

Olympic Games

2008-08-09T02:49:00.000+10:00

woohoo just finished watching the opening ^_^
is just fantastic, one that should not miss. I am really proud of China, they really do put up a good show, from wushu, dance, lighting of the olympic torch and finally the fireworks. The one thing that I am impressed is the Art. It started off with ppl dancing and at the same time producing the image of a mountain and sun. it is then followed by the footsteps of the competitors from all over the world to finised that piece of Art. Is really meaningful and at the same time memorable.
Well Done.

I love watching olympic games ever since I was a kid. the event I prefer are running and swimming. I hug sport, I guess is due to my dad, he was a good runner and swimmer during his teen. tat explain why I love to run tat much ^_^.

Ever since I moved into IH, I kind of understand the sentence, "so near yet so far". Will I still have a chance?

Lastly,
Happy Birthday Singapore

She is ALWAYS there

2008-05-11T22:57:00.000+10:00

She is "Always" there

She was there to feel my first hearbeat
She was there for my pre-school orientation
She was there when I got my first tooth pluck by dentist
She was there for my every graduations
She was there to listen to my first love story
She was there to comfort me when the relationship did not turn out well
She was there whenever I need a shoulder to cry on.
She was there when I am in trouble

She is ALWAYS there to clean up my mess, when I am a child, a teenage or an adult.
She is Always there for me and with no complains.

This great lady is "MY MUM"
"Happy Mother's Day"
Another year not being able to celebrate with you. I really do want to say A BIG THANK YOU for everything that you have done for me and I REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT.

what difference you from other mum is "ME"

Mother's Day is a day that:
You get all the attendtion, all the flowers, cards, presents.
The best thing is "You are not a year older"

I love you alot mum
Big kisses from me "MUAKIE"

Esther is a Happy Gal

2008-04-11T16:29:00.000+10:00

My Mum and Dad are here in Sydney. Hurray. Is been awhile since I see them. Therefore I am a Happy Gal. They will be here for my graduation woohoo. Finally is going to happen real soon.
But they will only be here for a short period of them. Well is good enough ^_^. Will be bringing them to lots of nice places to eat. hopefully they liked it. we went to Lowenbrau yesterday, the portion is quite big and consist of different types of meat. haha i guess is too much, my dad said that he was quite disgusted by the meat. so he says no more meat for him haha. so today will be Japanese food. I guess japanese food suites them more. well finger cross, hope they like it.

Packing now as we are off to hunter valley. Hunter Valley again..... Is my second time for this year. I guess i must have like red wine so much haha
Love Love

March Babies

2008-03-31T21:32:00.000+11:00

To all my dearest buddies and cousin = March Babies
Eve, Hui, Mian and Qian ^_^

Happy Birthday to all of you ^_^
I have not and never will I forget all of your birthdays.

Sorry for MIAing for so long... Have been trying to make ends meet -_- in other words.... trying to be superwoman again.....

Some words from "me to you":
A true fren is like a four-leaf clover hard to find and lucky to have.
Well... sometimes our lives are so busy... we hardly notice the days turn into weeks and months, but I still think of you each day and smile.
It's just not the same without all of you here and i really miss hanging out together.

I will be back real soon.
Lastly a Big Kiss from me MUAKIE

LoveLove

The 29th

2008-02-29T23:04:00.001+11:00

The 29th of Feb which happens every four years. How rare it is???
I wanted to have this post dated as a memory ^_^.

My everyday life has been a routine:
Monday - school
Tuesday - school
Wednesday - school
Thursday - school
Friday - school and bible study
Saturday - offday (depend where I want to go.)
Sunday - church

Sounds boring?? sure it does, but I am just glad that I have stuffs to do and to keep myself busy. Sometimes, I wonder to myself, maybe I was born a workaholic. I am the type of person that am happy when I have stuffs to do and depress when there is none.

These days I have been making decisions and listen to opinions. Afterall, life is about making lots of important and unimportant decision isn't it??
I still want to bing my education to the next level, therefore, making the right decision is essential.

I am just very grateful to have frens surround me who love who I am. I have only one life and I will live to the fullest.

Creepy Kamx, I will be back real soon, don't forget me oki. Love you gals alot. muakie

Happy Lunar New Year

2008-02-09T14:24:00.000+11:00

Dong Dong Chiang, Gong Xi Fa Cai
Hong Bao Na Lai ^_^
My favourite month of the year.

This is my first chinese new year away from home. I really missed my families and frens back home. Looking on the bright side, is a brand new experience. I organized a steamboat reunion dinner at Jehan's house for the eight of us.

The Eight

we have steam boat and bought a LOT of food from both oriental and IGA.. fish and meat balls, fish tofu, different kinds of meat, vegetables, prawns, etc and stuffed ourselves with these food and had a good reunion dinner anyway.

Food Food

A table full of food. There are more in the kitchen. Guess i bought too much.

The soup

My housemate made the soup first thing in the morning, with potatoes, carrots, onions and chicken stalk cubes and boiled for 9 hours. therefore it tasted supper yummy.

dessert of the day

we believed that we should have chinese stuffs so we bought rice ball "tang yuan".
guess wat the guys did??? they have it with ice-creams... awww..... I couldn't imgaine the taste. so please spare an auntie like me, i will just have plain rice balls instead.

After dinner, we were so full that we began to take pictures of ourselves with funny gestures.

erm... should i say only donald with his funny gestures???
haha acting cute at the back....

Donald hugging the wall

no idea what he was doing hehe??? imitate spiderman???

The normal ones

Us being our normal selves ^_^

Due to lab the next day, we left at around 1am.

On the Day of Chinese New Year

Meet up with my dear fren Zhijun after her work, we have a wonderful dinner at "pepo". their pizzas and pasta are really nice. Notice that we wore the same red t-shirt.

with the guys

Salads

arhh... forgot to take pictures of the food again. we were so hungry as per usual, we finished everything once they have been served. This was the only picture that I have taken. it left only half when i took it.

I miss my angbaos , chit-chatting and eating tons of chinese new year's goodies...
But I am really fortunate enough to have so many good frens surrounding me. is a memorable day that i will never forget. Thanks alot guys and gals. you really made this day special. muakie love you lots

Wishing everyone, a happy rat new year.
May Stuart Little brings you comfort
Mickey Mouse brings you joy
Ratatouie brings you abundance of good food
and most impotantly
minnie mouse brings you ultimate beauty
Year of 2008 with lots of laughter, love and optimism

Apparently this is my year "shhhh.... that defines my age"

Happy Chinese New Year to my parents, relatives, Creepy Kamx, Poly classmates, CCA frens and frens in Aussie.
Love all of you, muakie.

Sweet Roses for A Sweet Person Like You

2008-02-07T18:04:00.000+11:00

Sweet Roses for A Sweet Person Like You

I have started a new habit in the beginning of 2008 which is having flowers in my room ^_^. They really do brighten up my mood all day by alot. This week's flowers happen to be roses. They are just simply gorgeous.

First day

When i first bought it from the supermarket, the petals looked quite mini. There are about 13 of them per bunch. they came in different colors, yellow, blue, red etc. I picked the pink one as the color is really soothing plus i love the color pink.

Third Day

The third day, they looked bigger. aren't they pretty? muakie love love

Fifth day

They grew even bigger. well i have a feeling that they don't really last very long. but a week is pretty good enough ^_^. Hang on there roses.

I guess i will keep on buying roses, as they suit my vase better. Having flowers in my room, really do make a difference.

Sweet Quotes ^_^

The red rose whispers of passion,
And the white rose breathes of love;
O, the red rose is a falcon,
And the white rose is a dove.
But I send you a cream-white rosebud
With a flush on its petal tips;
For the love that is purest and sweetest
Has a kiss of desire on the lips - John Boyle O'Reilly, A White Rose

Kleenex Tissues
I love kleenex tissues, they are really good. This week I managed to buy them in disney boxes.

Tada, the princesses and the winnie the pooh series.

I am a complete disney characters freak. My favourite character of all time is "MICKEY MOUSE".
Waited quite awhile to buy these, cos they cost more than the normal ones. but is on sale this week so i grabbed two boxes. I do know it sounds really auntie but living expenses are quite high here so must really save on daily neccessities.

Is quite a random post that features two stuffs in my room ^_^.

a day at natsu matsuri

2008-02-03T00:25:00.000+11:00

Natsu Matsuri in Sydney?? Yes we have it here ^_^ how cool is that. since Australia is made up of different nationalities, we have all sorts of festivals. Is been a long time ever since i attended one. well no offence, but i still prefer the one in singapore.

Natsu Matsuri = Japanese Summer Festival
A festival often held at the temple. they have stalls for games and my favourite "food". people wearing yukata (a casual form of kimono) will be a common sight.

first, we rushed to the food stall to get Takoyaki and okonomiyaki (they call it hiroshima yaki. apparently, hiroshima is famous for okonomiyaki. wah wish i could try one in hiroshima, one of my favourite japanese food ^_^).

Food Stall

eekk.. i didn't manage to take any pictures of the food, as we were so hungry (came without any breakfast), we just stuffed everything down. but believe me is really delicious. well i guess waiting for about an hour for these were afterall worthwhile.

Our contented face ^_^

start of the bon odori.
bon odori is a traditional old folk dance. Xuexue and Shuyun will be very familiar with it. we would always participate in this dance during the summer festival in singapore and of course with yukata on.

hote hote mata hote sore
gatsuite gatsuite yakumodori sore
osute osute kiraite
jion jion ga jion

Me and Shuyun always recite this phrases when we were doing the dance.

Next is my favourite "Soran dance"
Soran dance from hokkaido

and more soran dance ^_^, this is by the sydney group. more youngsters

I always wanted to learn this soran dance, the moves are really cool. but is far too expensive since i am a non-japanese.

enough of the dance, let's move on to the yukata beauty contest

The group on the left is the male contestants, on the right is the female and the front role are the kids. There are lots of bishiojio and bishionen. the gals really did spend time dressing up. they have pretty clips on their hairs as well. the kids are so kawaii.

Noddle fighting contest

The standing ones are the winner. My fren and I still couldn't believe that the gal actually could eat that fast. she is really elegant not rushing at all.
They got a packet of soba each for participating. Wah is good, I also want some soba. Yum Yum

Finally Me with Candy floss to end this post, one pink and one blue. they taste super sweet and very fluffy.

We stayed back till 7pm for these events. is really fantastic and it definitely brings back good memories.
Thanks for my frens who went with me and actually stayed with me till the last performance.
Arigato gozaimashita.

Mum, The Greatest

2008-02-01T23:18:00.000+11:00

Is surprising why is the post "mum", one may ask. Well is not mother's day and is definitely not something ironic. It is just.. I came over a sign in my lab that reads, "Please Clean Up Your Mess, Your Mum Doesn't Work Here."

Is it funny? for a couple of seconds i will say YES. It was then I started to wonder, does my mum always cleans up my mess? Sad to say YES. From changing diapers to cooking my meals and cleaning my laundries, being called by teachers to see him/her (for Parent's Day of course). Seriously, I didn't even realise it when i was in Singapore, is just when i am now abroad without my mum to wash my dirty clothes and to cook my 3 meals, I came to notice how I have been taken her for granted.

I am not that kind of out-spoken person, in the sense that i don't say "I Love You". I don't think I have ever said that to my mum, which is pretty sad. I am that sort of person that believe in the term "Actions Speak Louder Than Words".
I always believe that my mum is the greatest. That applies to my dad too, but today's post is on "Mum" so more focus will be on her. ^_^

I just want to say A Big THANK YOU to her. For giving life to me and being so supportive in many ways and not forgetting to tolerate my unreasonable behaviour and temper. Not kidding... I guess I have the worst temper on earth, and my mum is really good at putting up with that.
I Really Do Love You Alot Mum.

"Just thinking of you, so I wanted to say that you make me smile every day. "

a typical first post from a typical "ME"

2008-01-27T13:12:00.000+11:00

As what i have wrote from the "words from the author", my life is not perfect, actually is far from being perfect.

But i love living the life that i have right now as this is the one and only life that i have. is a total blessing, i get to meet up with great people and experience lots of different and wonderful stuffs.

so why do we always yearn to be "perfect"? is it that important? imagine if everyone is to be so perfect, there will be no uniqueness. in another words, depleting the purpose of life.

and so.. "forget about being perfect".

and now here i am crossing another stage of my life... which is defined by age number and my degree status. i came to realise that life has been generally sweet on me and am lucky enough to experience stuffs than most (eg. going aboard to study).
i am thankful to the people around me, parents, relatives, buddies and the new frens that i have made. thanks for loving me in anyways. each and everyone of you are just so precious to me.

well, there are lots of opportunities lying ahead, so keep an open mind and live everyday to the fullest. remembering first impression is not always correct. have faith in others and most importantly have faith in ourselves.

life can be as simple as that.